Jennifer James
The journey to becoming an art therapist for Jennifer has been a long one. Since the very beginning, Jennifer knew that she wanted to be an artist and would claim that is what she wanted to be when she grew up. Throughout her formative years, Jennifer used art as a way to express herself, process her emotions, and to combat the depression she has experienced most of her life. She has personally experienced the healing power of art, and extensively used it for self-care and emotional regulation.
It was not until Jennifer began her own studio called James 222 Studios that she realized that the way that she approaches art and teaches others to engage with it was different than those that offered art classes. Many would come wanting to learn how to draw or paint, and end up in tears processing through memories and emotions that came up through the art. It was then that Jennifer decided that she needed to be equipped to help people heal through their art and connect to a deeper understanding of their identity and what their art was telling them.
Jennifer knew she on the right path when she was accepted to the program on 2/22/17 and was assigned to stay in Room 222 at Le Fer Hall at her first residency on campus, and the gas to get from Iowa to Indiana was $2.22 a gallon.
The artwork curated for this show focuses on identity development as Jennifer progressed through her graduate studies. There has been a significant amount of unraveling that has occurred for Jennifer over this three-and-a-half-year journey. Through the course work, and the amount of art that was created over this amount of time, Jennifer has learned a lot about herself and utilized her personal therapy to dig deeper into the change and transformation that has occurred. The work that was chosen for this exhibit are excerpts from her personal art journal, self-portraits, grief, trauma, and parts work. Jennifer is comfortable with a wide variety of materials from pastels, pencil, colored pencils, collage, mixed media, and painting. Accompanied with her artwork is some writing for each piece.
Jennifer utilizes a trauma-informed approach, engaging and utilizing the senses and experiences that are coming up in the body as the art is created. Jennifer is interested in narrative theory and the power of giving voice and expression to the stories that are often stored and exiled within individuals. Learning how to listen and experience these powerful emotions, and remembering the experiences that are attached to them, it is often helpful for Jennifer to engage in highly controlled materials like pencils and focus on likeness and details to help herself to stay grounded and not flooded by trauma responses and the nervous system being overwhelmed and cause her to dissociate. This creates emotionally charged detailed work that draws the viewer into the narrative that is being expressed.
Art is Messy
In life if you engage in the process, the colors and people you encounter leave their mark upon you. You carry the experience with you long after the color wears off and then you learn to paint with the colors left on your soul.
Planting
I am the one who sews my whole heart.
I am the one who allows
love, hope, and dreams to take root.
I am the one that carefully tends to the wonder and magic of faith that what we can’t see, knowing some day the growth will be visible to others.
Grace Like Water
Every now and then we all fall.
We don’t know where we will go, or what will happen when we finally feel the impact.
If we can allow Grace to flood in like water, and surround us, we still may not be able to breathe and our air may be knocked out of us, we can still be held.
And if we can stop fighting against it, we will rise, be supported, and carried by something much bigger than ourselves.
I am NOT the Monster
I am the one who cried when I was seen for the first time right through my monster suit.
I am the one that was brave enough to unzip the suit and step out into innocence.
I am the one who emerged from this darkness.
I am the one who is healing and is beginning to understand that the true monsters are the ones that tell little girls that it’s all their fault.
Into the Deep
I am the one that sees you.
I am the one that is not afraid of the dark or what lurks there, because it will all come into the light.
I am not the one that saves you, but the one that journeys with you, listening to you begin to write your own story.
Rescue
I am the one who came back for you.
I am the one that you can find your home in again.
I am the one that will not abandon you anymore.
I am the one that is on a rescue mission to bring home all the exiled parts of me that I have banished to the outskirts of my soul.
I am the one who will make us whole again.
Legacy Left Behind
I am the one that sits with big emotions and allows the storms to rage.
I am the one who grieves all the losses.
I am the one that releases what hurts, being gentle, kind, and compassionate to those parts or me.
I am the one who soaks up the freedom and allows my life to be impacted by love.
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